I just want things to be simple.

I just want to BE.

BE. BE.  BE.

Why do so few things exist without having to set them up, or making sure they don't fall down?

Is it to much to ask for a few things to simply come into focus, and stay there, no matter what?

Is it?  I'm not being egotistic, I'm really asking--I don't know.  Part of me thinks it is too much to want something for nothing... but my--eh--'soul' just craves it.  Just craves an institution, or idea, or person, or thing that I get, it clicks with my being, and just stays there.  I don't have to set up a freaking environment for it, and work on it constantly to maintain it.

I can't just be secure with anyone.  No one can be like that with anyone, it seems.  And if they say they are--they're lying.

I feel badly for seeing straight through people--they tell me I'm wrong, and I feel like a big assuming jerk.  But deep on the inside I know I'm right.  And feel guilty for telling them that I see them for who they really are--I see what they are trying to hide.

And I incessantly feel like I"m judged for comments like this.  Am I?  I don't know.  Then I feel badly for feeling like I'm being judged.  Wasn't I just preaching about being secure?  I'm one of the most insecure people I know.

Maybe I'm like this because no one has ever given me a reason to be secure?  To trust?  An easy way out, I guess.

I don't know.

I don't know.

Hi there. I agree with your sentiment on wanting things to be simple. However, considering the post was left right around the time of our flop of a conversation, I find myself wondering if you were talking about me with the comment that you can see straight through people, that you know what's "really" going on. Are you talkinga about me? Do you want to see straight through me or do you think you can? Do you think you know my "true intentions" or my "real desires". Go for it and when you figure it out, let me know. I like you as a friend but I find needing you to be very risky. I want you to be happy so I'll be around whenever you wanna hang out or whatnot. Have a good one. :)

You know Lacey... I'm really tired of you thinking you know what's going on. We just want you to come up here and see our new apartment. Fine, I don't care if you think there is "something else" going on, but hey, apparently you know me better than I do. I hope you have fun with your life of being a drunk, a pothead, a hippie, a bitch, and a snot-nosed, spoiled shithead brat. Hey, guess what? Some friendships need to be sustained and nourished or they die. Remember when you came down to JC when we had that scenario where I was mad at you, then you gave me some bullshit reason about you being different. Hey, I saw right through you. You knew it was over. Why did you even try? I don't know, I really can't understand it. Oh, and I'm sorry that you think that UMC is the only university in MO that is good enough for you. I can see right through you on your college choice as well. Either Montana or UMC... hmmm. Montana so you can get away from everybody and not have to deal with your non-Columbia friends anymore. UMC so you can give the excuse that you need to study or something so you'd have to stay in Columbia and play your gay-ass roleplaying games. It's too bad that you have to choose a fake world over the real one. Don't bother responding, I don't want to know about your shit-head excuse about how it's all my fault. I can see right through you... you are as transparent as a pane of glass. I lost all respect for you when you became a drunk and a pothead who can only hang out with people are have the same aspects. If you didn't want to be around us anymore... you should have said something. You should have told us if you thought hanging with us is boring. I know that is true because you told Adam that and Adam told us. You LIED to me on several occasions. I know you don't care, but you are not welcome in our apartment. Goodbye, bitch.

Holy crap. Well, it seems that if you desire simplicity you now have it. Jesus.

That is definitely simple. and I'm sure with or without work it'll stay the same. I geuss some things do just come into existence and stay that way.
I love you lacey, but sometimes you make very wrong choices.
I don't know if I can agree with you on seeing through people. As good as you are when information is handed to you. You don't generally do too well when getting it for yourself. You don't see through people, you see reflections of yourself I think.
I love you but this entry needs to be rethought a bit.

Wow. O_O Just thought you could use a hug. See you soon sweetie. Have fun disecting any messages from me - hehehe.:)

God damnit. Why is it happening like this?

Excellent question Adam. Perhaps some things should be allowed to die.

One benefit...it is pretty simple.

Hey there Ty,

I actually emailed Lacey to that affect a few days ago...but I think it was misinterpreted. I upset her when I didn't mean to.

hey babe... we all want things to be simple... trust me... that's why I have pets... as long as I feed them, I'm number one in their books... come play with the puppy, I'll make coffee or perhaps we'll enjoy away from the boys for a change :) We can figure out a way to simplify both our lives!
Amanda

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